Life Update: Marriage and Weight Gain

As the title suggests, this is both a positive and kick up the bum post.

I need to get it out or I’ll explode. So first the good; I GOT MARRIED!

WOOOOOOO! After nearly 9 years I finally got hitched to Mr Fisher and I could not be happier.

Here are just a few pics of the amazing day.

It was a wonderful day and soo many people came.

And now the not so good.

I am really struggling with this healthy living lark.

In the lead up to the wedding I had something to aim for because I needed to make sure I could fit into my dress but I had been struggling for a while if I’m being honest with myself.

Firstly, this has nothing to do with quitting Slimming World as that was making me miserable; that was obsessing TOO MUCH about the scales, which isn’t healthy either in my opinion.

I know living healthy will help me live longer but something just isn’t clicking for the long-term in my brain at the moment.

At the weekend,we did our weekly shop and along with all the typical salad that is a regular in my trolley now, we picked up some indian starters, not just 1 or 2,4 different varieties and about 6 of each. Then I fancied one of those packs of mediterranean meats; you know the ones that have fat in them like serrano ham and such like. So I grabbed a huge pack because they were the only ones that had variety and because we had that, we got a pizza to put some of the meat on. (I NEVER BUY PIZZA IN THE SUPERMARKET)

I feel like I’m losing control of my ability to say no, or my ability to balance out the bad with the good. I was pretty good last week because when I’m at work, I have routine, but it gets to Friday and its like I let my cares disappear and shovel whatever I can in my mouth.

I feel like if Lee’s having something, then I want it too because I don’t want to miss out. I HATE MISSING OUT,especially when it comes to food.

I know I should draw a line under it and enjoy those little wobbles because life is about balance, but I can see my body shape changing and not for the better. 😦

I’ve worked so frigging hard but it seems to be getting really hard for me to keep my healthy food in check.

My little sister is joining Slimming World with my mum on Wednesday, so I’m hoping they can give me some motivation because I don’t want to go back up into the next stone bracket because I’ll feel like I’ve failed.

I’m trying not to use the scales too much but I need to get over myself and see what the damage is, and take my measurements again to see where I am with things.

I need help. How do you get back on it if your brain has basically given up and every time anyone offers you anything remotely naughty,you say yes straight away.

PLEASE HELP, I am seriously struggling :((

SIMW

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It was going so well…

Ok so, I started off so well and then my laziness appeared Friday and this happened…

 

Yeah I did not make it to the end of Dry January, I know, I’m crap! But I did 20 days and that’s something I suppose. I had nearly a full bottle of wine and a curry (that we made…with a packet sauce, but had it with salad…and a few buffet chicken things from Iceland).


Then Saturday I had a huge bowl of Mini chocolate chip Weetabix (no weighing and measuring there) and tried not to eat much all day, then around 6ish, we drove to get a KFC. Not just chicken though mind; I had a Wicked Zinger towered large meal with coleslaw for my side AND a flaming wrap too.

The Sunday I made a definite effort to have a healthy breakfast so had 3 reduced fat sausages, 2 scrambled eggs, some beans and mushrooms… And I knew I had a busy day of shopping round Country Baskets for my bouquet stuff for the wedding (Have you ever been? It is AHMAZING!).

Mum managed to spend £60 bless her on fake flowers for my bouquet and all the buttonholes, along with lots of ribbon, oasis (stuff you stick flowers in) and other glitzy bits.

I’m quite nervous now as it isn’t very far away and I still have a lot to pay for. Just wondering where to find the money I suppose haha.

Anyway, in the evening I had a few well-spent hours with my better half listening to some music (managed to sip 4 rum and diet cokes in the process) and had a chicken dinner with all the ‘healthy’ trimmings.


I think it’s safe to say my weekend was pretty much trashed food wise but ah well, onwards and upwards!

Had a good day yesterday, went to gym and hoping to have another good day today, followed by a gym sesh too. 🙂

Keeping my fingers crossed for a maintain but a loss would be great too. I went to the gym 4 times last week and think I pulled a muscle, so am paying for it slightly now. I need to remember not to go too hard and to properly stretch afterwards.

My weigh in is tomorrow (or Today as I’m posting this) for those who don’t know and I still need to get back in target. I need to lose 1.5lb to do that.

Will update you here but be sure to follow me on Instagram or Facebook as I update there first.

Have a wonderful day lovelies and speak soon!

SIMW

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