Where am I going

Hi Lovelies,

Just bear with me on this.

I started this blog as a means of becoming accountable for my weight loss, almost as a way of keeping me on track with my progress.

Through the past few years, this blog has been a constant and although I haven’t always posted on a regular basis in recent times, it has always been there at the back of my mind as a measuring tool and reminder.

As this point in my healthy journey, there are no real goals to get to and no all-important stone bracket to fall into; mainly because I’m not looking at it that way anymore.

When I started this journey, it was to lose weight and get fitter, but that term ‘lose weight’ is now a difficult one for me. I don’t get on the scales anymore mainly because I never liked the fact that they could either make or break my day and my emotions were so tied to that little (or big) number staring back at me.

Now I just try to see it as a whole and live healthier overall, with a more balanced lifestyle. But that means the measurable goal kinda goes out the window. I don’t want a goal weight, I don’t have a goal body shape and I don’t have a goal fitness to get to, which makes this whole process a lot harder.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this but I guess I just want to get it all out there to help me understand it.

Here’s what I know for definite:

  1. I’m still trying to eat healthy and enjoy cooking
  2. I’m still trying to build my fitness and enjoy challenging myself
  3. I love feeling healthier and lighter and it has changed my life

So those are all really good things.

But I suppose this blog was never designed to capture the end of my journey, of course, my journey will never be over, as its a constant process I have to work at every day. But for me, because of that, it makes it hard to know what path to go down when writing my posts.

So I’ve decided to try and stress less about what you might want to read, and just write about what I want, whether its interesting or not. (sorry haha)

At the end of the day, this is my blog and writing it makes me feel good. Knowing this is my corner of the internet makes me feel better and puts a warm blanket around me to tell me that everything’s going to be ok.

So, this year, I am going to focus more on what’s best for me instead of pandering to other people, which I’m sure you lovelies would want me to do anyway. There’s no point in doing anything if its not what you really want to do.

So here goes!

Off to the gym later for a good sweat!

Speak soon lovelies! xx


In need of a new wardrobe!

I was having one of those moments this morning where I could just not find anything to wear.

You know what happens.You open your wardrobe,look at what you have and basically have a strop that nothing looks right on you.

Well,although my weight loss has been fantastic and I am in no way ungrateful,it has created another problem. None of my clothes fit me anymore.A lot of them have gone beyond the point of wearing them if they’re just a bit baggy because they are actually MASSIVE now.

I had to throw away my favourite pair of pink skinny jeans today because they are just too big.

That was a sad moment.

The neck hole in tshirts slip off my shoulder and I get a saggy pouch in my lady area when I’ve got my skinny jeans on,or any trousers for that matter. I wouldn’t mind if I could afford to buy loads of new clothes but I can’t. I’ve had one clear out of all the clothes that don’t fit me and I need to do it again but am running out of things to wear.

I wish I had enough money to buy smaller clothes but at the minute I’m walking round in saggy potato sacks with baggy bras and loose tops.I look ridiculous!

No one tells you that when you have a big loss,you will be stuck with the bill for a new wardrobe. I have a sewing machine and have basic sewing skills but you can only alter a pair of work trousers so many times before its time to buy new.

I guess I will have to deal with this issue and hopefully slowly build a new slimmer wardrobe over time. Mind you,depending on how well this year goes for weight loss,I could be in the same position this time next year and in need of another slimmer wardrobe!

Here’s hoping,sort of.