Life Update: Marriage and Weight Gain

As the title suggests, this is both a positive and kick up the bum post.

I need to get it out or I’ll explode. So first the good; I GOT MARRIED!

WOOOOOOO! After nearly 9 years I finally got hitched to Mr Fisher and I could not be happier.

Here are just a few pics of the amazing day.

It was a wonderful day and soo many people came.

And now the not so good.

I am really struggling with this healthy living lark.

In the lead up to the wedding I had something to aim for because I needed to make sure I could fit into my dress but I had been struggling for a while if I’m being honest with myself.

Firstly, this has nothing to do with quitting Slimming World as that was making me miserable; that was obsessing TOO MUCH about the scales, which isn’t healthy either in my opinion.

I know living healthy will help me live longer but something just isn’t clicking for the long-term in my brain at the moment.

At the weekend,we did our weekly shop and along with all the typical salad that is a regular in my trolley now, we picked up some indian starters, not just 1 or 2,4 different varieties and about 6 of each. Then I fancied one of those packs of mediterranean meats; you know the ones that have fat in them like serrano ham and such like. So I grabbed a huge pack because they were the only ones that had variety and because we had that, we got a pizza to put some of the meat on. (I NEVER BUY PIZZA IN THE SUPERMARKET)

I feel like I’m losing control of my ability to say no, or my ability to balance out the bad with the good. I was pretty good last week because when I’m at work, I have routine, but it gets to Friday and its like I let my cares disappear and shovel whatever I can in my mouth.

I feel like if Lee’s having something, then I want it too because I don’t want to miss out. I HATE MISSING OUT,especially when it comes to food.

I know I should draw a line under it and enjoy those little wobbles because life is about balance, but I can see my body shape changing and not for the better. 😦

I’ve worked so frigging hard but it seems to be getting really hard for me to keep my healthy food in check.

My little sister is joining Slimming World with my mum on Wednesday, so I’m hoping they can give me some motivation because I don’t want to go back up into the next stone bracket because I’ll feel like I’ve failed.

I’m trying not to use the scales too much but I need to get over myself and see what the damage is, and take my measurements again to see where I am with things.

I need help. How do you get back on it if your brain has basically given up and every time anyone offers you anything remotely naughty,you say yes straight away.

PLEASE HELP, I am seriously struggling :((



5 Days to go

Hi Lovelies,

I know its been a while and I do apologise but let’s get a move on eh?

I get married in 5 days and cannot believe how stressed I feel. I am trying to do what I can to remain calm but I’m a naturally anxious worrier, so it’s proving difficult.

It doesn’t help that I’ve had a few last minute guest cancellations but hey ho, there we go eh?

So to try and keep calm, I have been listening to meditations for the past week or so, putting lavender oil and spray on my pillow and wrists before bed but am not really sure what else to do.

Most of the stuff is organised so there’s not a lot to do on that side of things so I’d love some tips if anyone who is a natural worrier has gotten married and can give any advice?

My mind is full of ‘what if’ scenarios that if they were to happen, I can’t do anything about it but my mind still thinks up all sorts of weird and wonderful events that could steer the wedding day off course in some way or another.

I’m stopping at my mums the night before, so I know a night away from my bed isn’t the best thing but hoping that a night at my mums (my childhood home) will help keep me calm.

It’s amazing how many problems create themselves when you know you have a day planned out in a certain way.

Hope to hear from you lovelies soon!



For the Last Time

This will be the third, and hopefully the last time I write a post like this. I’ve been a naughty bugger again and haven’t been keeping you up to date.

As my previous post mentioned, I have been away for a while and can’t seem to get into a groove of blogging. Well I’m here to say that ends now.

I am sat with a nice lemon earl grey tea as I write this. 😊

I think the reason I have been absent is that I spend all day at a computer writing now for my job, so it feels like the last thing I want to do when I get home is sit at my laptop. But I know when I write for my blog,it helps get my mind in order and process everything a little easier.
So here’s a short update on things so we can move forward.

I have been driving for a few months now and it has been the best thing I ever did; I have my own little Citroen C4 in black with yellow car seat covers. It’s my bumblebee!

The job is still going fab, back to work tomorrow after the Christmas period spent well and truly off the healthy eating bandwagon. I have been back on it today though, which is a start.

I’m still at Slimming World, but am in two minds as to whether I should stick with it or do my own thing. I’m also still going to the gym and had a crisis of complacency about a month ago as to whether I should quit or not but that soon passed and I think I’ve got my mojo back.It’s the getting there that’s the problem mentally, but I always glad when I’ve been.

Anyway, back to the present. I get married on 10th June this year… YES I KNOW!  I can’t wait but there is so much to pay for and I’m beginning to wonder whether I should have waited an extra year. But the date is set, the venue is booked and I have to find a way to pay for it all now, so yeah, that’s where we’re at!

I AM going to update this blog on a more regular basis, I promise. Even if no one reads this anymore, at least I will feel better knowing I’m updating my Slimming It My Way journey. 🙂

On a side note,these muller light coffee yoghurts are bloody gorgeous! 

Every time I see them in shops,I grab em! I will add a few more posts in the coming days but for now just know that I am back for good this time and am here to get back on the healthy eating bandwagon!
Speak soon lovelies, and Happy New Year!