9 Stone lighter; what a difference!

Why hello my little squishy pets of loveliness! (Sorry, trying something new)

As it’s Wednesday, I would ordinarily be going to Slimming World; however, if you read my post on Monday, you’ll know that I’m taking a break.

So, instead of sitting in image therapy for an hour, I thought I would do my own little Tasha therapy here.

Here are my Top 10 things I love doing now I’m 9 stone lighter

  • Being able to shop anywhere and buy something in my size
  • Wearing some of my old size 24 clothes and loving the snugglyness
  • The ability to walk uphill at a moderate pace without breaking a sweat
  • Learning to cook new meals and choosing new ingredients to spice them up!
  • No longer having ‘aggressive boobs’ as my step daughter puts it
  • Able to sleep on my back without feeling claustrophobic
  • I can actually plank for 1 minute 30 seconds now..WTF!
  • Feeling like a normal person who isn’t being stared at everywhere she goes
  • Being able to wear fitting clothes and not hide my figure

All of these combined make me feel like a new person; I love being able to walk down my local high street and not feel the dread that I used to feel wondering what people thought as I walked past. The constant pulling down of my top and pulling up of my jeans to make sure my belly wasn’t hanging out. Never having to worry about getting left behind whilst out walking with a friend or sibling, now I’m in front! Being able to shop anywhere I like and able to buy anything off the peg, even Topshop (their clothes are horribly expensive and I will never purchase from them at those prices however!).

I finally feel normal, whatever that’s supposed to be. I only ever wanted to look like everyone else, and, I know that’s the wrong way of putting it because I embrace individuality as much as the next person. But I felt like I stuck out and was an eyesore; I felt apologetic for looking the way I did and no one should ever feel that way.

I am learning to love myself and everything that I have in the present time, rather than thinking, ‘I’ll be happy when…’. It doesn’t work that way, we have to take the good with the bad and appreciate what we have already, not what we hope to have in the future.

So, in my current state, I love my waist, my eyes, my smile and I love my ever growing confidence that I can wear what I want and not feel silly.

What do you appreciate about yourself right now?

SIMW

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Reminding myself of how far I’ve come

OK, so it’s time for a little self love which I feel is way overdue if I do say so myself.

We all go around shouting body positivity and saying fuck what everyone else thinks. You are you and you are unique, so it doesn’t matter what everyone else thinks…Right?

But how many of you actually believe that? How many of you appreciate what you are both inside and out? I don’t, I’ll be honest, but I’m trying.

I fall foul of this and say I appreciate what I’ve achieved but its been that slow a process for the last 12 months or so, that I seem to have forgotten just how damn hard I have worked over the past 3 years to get where I am now.

So without further delay,here are a few of my old pics and a few new ones mixed in too, just to show both you and myself how far I have come and how much progress I’ve made.

Hopefully this will help you as much as I’m hoping it will me.

I definitely recommend this to anyone who feels complacent with their diet or healthy lifestyle and I do try not to call it a diet because it shouldn’t be. But we restrict ourselves if we have a particularly heavy weekend with the booze or food and we shouldn’t.

The aim should be just to live healthier in general, not 4 days on and 3 days off. It doesn’t work that way.

Anyway I’m moving off topic here but what I’m trying to say is, if you are one of those who feel like they are trying to live healthier but are just going through the motions. Find a collection of photos both before, during and at the shape you are now and really look at them and take in everything you have achieved.

If you’re just starting your journey, then find a photo of you where you felt fantastic and use that as a goal to feel as good as you did in that photo. It doesn’t necessarily mean to lose a certain amount of weight but maybe to get better sleep, or learn to find new hobbies to do in your spare time or just to do more fun things that makes you happy.

Whatever it is, hold onto it and remind yourself how well you’re doing and that yes, you ARE ENOUGH.

Woah got a bit deep there.

Speak Soon lovelies, have a fab day!

SIMW

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Underestimating Myself

I was talking to my colleague the other day about where I felt my life was going just in general office chat and I was talking about feeling a bit down for several reasons.

Then the topic got onto how I look and my colleague said something to the effect of;

‘Tash,I don’t think you realise just how stunning you are.I bet you have turned heads and not known.’

I guess because of how big I was,I still see that person staring back at me and it’s only when I look at old photos that I realise just how much I have changed physically.

I know I’m pretty (sorry if that sounds big-headed) but not in the conventional sense.I would never say I look stunning but maybe I should start appreciating myself more.I know I talk about loving your body but it’s easy to lose site of that sometimes.You just end up going through the motions and never fully,truly appreciating what you have.

I also made a decision yesterday to finally start going after the things I want in life and not let what other people think dictate my decision.

I’m only 26 years old and I act at times like I have no life; I just go through the motions in a monotonous routine. That needs to change and I need to do more of what makes me happy.

So I am going to focus on passing my driving test (I passed my theory by the way,forgot to tell you!); that way I can do more things for myself and not have to rely on others.

If I want to go for a coffee with my mum,I can just drive there. Whereas at the minute I can’t really do anything because public transport is so bad.

I am also going to stop spending the little money I have on frivolous things and actually spend it on days out to get the most out of my month. I want to look back on a month and think, ‘Yeah I enjoyed that.’ instead of, ‘well what do I have to show for it?’ I got a bit obsessed with having stuff like makeup and clothes instead of organising days out and utilising my wage a bit better to do things with the important people in my life.

Anyway, I hope your Monday goes well today lovelies and you don’t get bogged down with work/life crap. Take each day as it comes and go after what you want.

We only get one life, so may as well live it!

SIMW

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