Whitby Goth Weekend Preparations and Weekly Weigh In

Good Morning to you my lovelies!

This past week has been mad busy for me as I have been getting ready for the upcoming Whitby Goth Weekend woooooooo! I am SUPER excited as I have never been before so don’t really know what to expect but am keeping an open mind.

I have started packing but my mum has specifically told me to pack light as she seems to think that cars are made out of paper and anything heavier than a feather will break it. There are 5 of us travelling and lets just say we’re all generously sized so that may have something to do with it!

I have spent days researching gothic makeup, hair and style ideas to figure out how to goth it up for the big weekend. I have this dress that you will have seen if you follow me on Instagram:


…and have bought this bolero to go over it but I plan on taking this off when inside  pubs so everyone can see the back of the dress. 🙂

Photo courtesy of ebay
Photo courtesy of Asos

I bought some fishnet tights like the ones above and already have some black boots to wear. I also have some of these skelebob hair clips that I’m going to try to work into my look:

Photo courtesy of Ebay

…and am going to attempt a go at this sort of makeup look:

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Basically come Thursday night, I will be mad trying out makeup looks to see which one looks best and attempt to do a decent liquid eyeliner! (I am terrible under pressure!)

I am also going to attempt to have my hair like this:

Photo courtesy of CreativeFan.com

It will be half pinned up and the rest down in ringlets (This will probably take me forever!) If I can get anywhere near this I will be really happy!

I have painted my nails like this ready for this weekend so may try and put red somewhere else in my outfit if possible.

That’s basically my look for the Saturday at the goth weekend, just because I cannot be bothered to make all that effort for the 3 days I’m there. I’ll just go all out for 1 day and be in comfortable alternative clothes for the rest of the weekend.

Has anyone been to Whitby Goth Weekend and do you have any recommendations of where to go to eat, drink and shop? I know its going to be super busy but I plan on buying a few special presents for Christmas and also shall stuff my face with seaside food! (doughnuts,ice-cream and fish ‘n’ chips I’m looking at you!)

On another note, this week’s weigh in was:

So that’s a loss of 2 lb which I wasn’t expecting as I had a takeaway on Friday and a big breakfast Saturday morning. It just shows that as long as you have a balance and don’t go overboard, you can still enjoy the naughty foods. I will just have to pull it back a bit after Whitby and not get carried away with all the lovely food! I also took my measurements last night and wrote them down in a book. The last time I had taken them was January this year and I have lost a fair few inches since then. I can’t tell you my measurements as I don’t have my book with me (yeah I know,what an idiot) so will add these and maybe update this post later!

Have a fab day lovelies and let me know your suggestions on where to go in Whitby!



Fishy Italian Spaghetti

I went into creativity mode the other day and made this little bowl of healthy goodness.


  • 75 grams of spaghetti
  • 4 green olives sliced in half
  • half carton of chopped tomatoes (about 200 grams)
  • 1 Tsp of Philadelphia Whipped Garlic and Herb
  • Italian seasoning to taste (I put a lot in!)
  • 2 large button mushrooms
  • 1 third of a red and yellow bell pepper
  • 1 Birds Eye Sundried Tomato Fish Fillet (or whatever fish you like)
  • 4 baby sweetcorn spears

I really fancied making a pasta dish for my lunch at work as I seem to have fallen into a routine of not having pasta thinking it’s bad for me (due to the carbs). It’s not bad for me but my brain does stupid things sometimes.

Anyway onto the method!


Preheat the oven to 180.Cook your choice of fish to the packet instructions for about 25 minutes. Boil some water in a pan, add the spaghetti and simmer for 9 minutes (al-dente), 11 minutes (soft).

Meanwhile, chop all your ingredients and preheat a frying pan with Frylight. Add the mushrooms, peppers,baby corn and cook to soften.Add the rest of the veg along with the Philadelphia,chopped tomatoes and Italian seasoning.Simmer for about 5 mins on a low heat;don’t forget to stir!

Drain the spaghetti and put to one side.

Take the veg mixture off the heat and stir into the spaghetti.Flake the fish into the pasta,stir lightly and you’re done!


This may not win medals for presentation but it is one of the most tastiest pasta dishes ever and it’s so simple to make that any idiot can do it (even me!)

If you have a go at this, let me know how it turns out and what changes you make to make it your own!



Weigh Day Wednesday 21/10/15

Good Morning guys!

Quick question, do you think I should move the weigh-ins to just every other week? I feel like these posts aren’t gaining as much attention as maybe they used to, not really sure why but ah well. Anyways let me know your thoughts as I am thinking about incorporating my weigh in into other posts instead of just having one talking about my weekly weigh in.

Anyway, This past Sunday was my 26th Birthday! On Friday my sisters took me to Sheffield as a surprise but we ended up walking for about half an hour to find where the pubs they wanted to go were (that was good exercise). I didn’t drink a lot really, not really sure why but enjoyed myself and then ended on a McDonald’s (Big Tasty meal to be exact). Then on Saturday me and Lee stayed in and ordered a curry. I had a chicken Jalfrezi which was gorgeous!Lee had a spicy lamb Karachi I think which gave him the hiccups due to the sheer heat!

Then on Sunday, all my family came over with lots of presents and my two besties came too. They all devoured the cake my colleague had made me…

Though its clear why as it was beautiful! I have had a taste but not actually had a piece so I think that will be tonight’s treat after my driving lesson!I seemed to get wine from everyone so I must be giving off an alco vibe!

All in all I had a good birthday and realised just how much Lee, my family and friends love me. It really makes you appreciate the loved ones in your life when you see them all chatting and laughing at your house;best feeling ever!:)

I went to the gym Monday but only had a short session, then yesterday had about 50 minutes so exercise has been less than usual but I have tried to make up for it with my food (apart from birthday celebrations). Besides, there’s no point beating myself up about not doing enough because I did what I could with the time I had and that’s all you can ask for.

I found my measuring tape!

 So will take my measurements and then stick em up to begin the progress checking on this one. 🙂

This week’s weigh in was:

A good one! I’m back into the 13’s which means my holiday bloating has well and truly faded. Think that’s a loss of 2lb and a quarter. I am just aiming to lose a little every few weeks as I’m not working as intense as I used to. I’m trying not to push myself so hard at the gym but try harder with my food as that’s where I struggle.

I also booked my theory test so am going to have to focus more on that to pass rather than pounding it at the gym all the time. I kind of got a bit obsessed for a short while but feel I have a better balance now.

I’m doing well with not obsessing about the scales (even though I am still weighing in); I’m not letting the number affect me so much because it’s not a sprint is it?

I will get there when I get there and that takes so much pressure off. 🙂

Have a good day guys.



Personal Fat Shaming Experiences

Hi There lovelies!

I thought I would do something a bit different today as I felt it was important to talk about it given how I’ve been feeling lately. I feel like I am forgetting how I used to feel when I was 22 stone and want to touch base a bit both with myself but also with you guys too.

Those who know me well will know that I have never been a confident person, despite posting pictures of myself at various weight loss stages.  At school I was always the good friend, always the one who my friends would come to for advice and would always be the first to take the mick out of myself for my weight before anyone else could.

I was also battling with my identity as I am mixed race and being from a small town that was at the time, primarily white, it felt hard to be me. I was chubby and had the problem that all asian women have; facial hair! So I was a walking target for abuse and bullying really. Kids can be cruel.

Anyway I want to share with you some of my own fat shaming experiences that I have dealt with several times and had pushed to the back of my mind, until now.

  1. I remember once when I got on the bus and went to sit on a bus seat right at the front. As soon as my bum touched the seat, it made an almighty crack sound that echoed down the bus. My face was burning with shame the entire journey home.
  2. Being sat on a bus as it fills up and seeing people taking one look at me and fighting for other seats so they didn’t have to sit next to me. This would happen regularly. Or the other side, when I’m getting on a bus and try to sit as far off the end of the seat for fear of touching the person next to me in case they think I’m over-spilling on to them. I always got the feeling they thought I was disgusting just because I was fat.
  3. Once I was walking home from school (I was about 14 years old) when a car full of teenage lads came up the road, slowed down and a projectile yoghurt pot was thrown at me, along with slurs of ‘fat cow’ and ‘lose some weight fatty’. This was horrible because I was on my own and walked into my house crying and hating myself for it thinking it was my fault for attracting the attention.
  4. Countless times I have been out to eat with friends and looked at what they ordered then what I wanted to order and thought to myself, ‘what is wrong with me?Why do I eat so much food?’ I would then proceed to order something I didn’t want just to fit in.
  5. This used to happen all the time. Walking anywhere on my own and hearing the sniggers, finger-pointing and whispering while I was just going about my business. This hurt the most because I was made to feel like a freak show just because I was fat.
  6.  Being watched by shop assistants as I browse through clothes. In my local New Look in particular, I felt like this. I could feel their eyes burning into my back as I would browse. They were clearly making sure I would find my way to the Inspire section, which by the way is tucked away in the shop so you feel like you’re looking at porn or committing some illegal act!

Just because I’m not pushing 22 stone anymore, doesn’t mean those insecurities aren’t still there; they’re deeply ingrained in my soul. I’m older and wiser now and my weight loss has definitely given me a helping hand in the confidence department. But I am still fat and that’s ok.

Women constantly compare themselves to others and wonder why we can’t look like that. We reach for those unattainable goals of perfection. Being fat shamed has taught me that people will always pick fault with you, even if they don’t know a thing about you. It’s our job to educate them and rise above the discrimination.

It is not a crime to be fat. We should all be proud of our body and every little bump it has. You only get one body so treat it right. Don’t let opinion influence how you live your life. I allowed it to dictate mine for a while in my teens but became so withdrawn at uni, it made for a horrible lonely experience at times.

We all have insecurities regardless of our size, so the next time you feel like you’re being treated badly because of the way you look, just think of this:


Love you Guys



Weigh Day Wednesday 14/10/15

Good Afternoon lovelies!

This week’s weigh in was as expected. I maintained at 14stone 1lb. I went to see Fall Out Boy in Manchester on Friday as my birthday present from Lee (woop woop!).

Here are a few pics:





 That’s Lee faking a sad face coz he’s not a huge fan of FOB haha.

As I wasn’t at work the following Friday, on Thursday night we had chinese (I know!), then Friday morning I had a McDonald’s Breakfast, later had a curry and the morning after at Trafford Lodge we had a continental breakfast. I had toast, cereal AND pastries for mine so basically had my meals and everyone else’s too!

However, I got straight back on it when I got home. I don’t know how people can say that you can still go out with friends or on nights out and have a healthy version of what you would normally have. When I go out I WANT TO EAT CRAP. Going out is a special occasion that doesn’t happen very often, so naturally I want to treat myself while out and I don’t want to be made to feel bad for fully enjoying myself!

This coming Sunday is my 26th birthday. YAY! So I am going to be as good as I can food wise then enjoy my birthday cake that my awesome colleague Tracy is making for me. Will put the photos up when I get it. 🙂 I might also do a little birthday post to show you what I got if it’s anything good haha.

Last week I said I would take my measurements to use them as more of a guideline now my weight loss has slowed. However, I can’t bloody find them! So tonight I am going to turn my house upside down and not stop until I find them and get my measurements!

Here’s to being another year older and starting to lose my marbles! (I know I’m still in my 20’s but sometimes I feel SO OLD!).

Love you guys and thanks for continuing to follow me! Tell me have any of you found that taking your measurements help keep you motivated?